I didn't went to BBQ. Hope the CLT's ( Cadet Lieutenants ) won't get angry with me.

I slept late yesterday night. And i did something grave that i can never forgive me myself. I've hurt her. By my foolish impatients and paranoia.

I'm sorry.

I was late today. Came for fencing at 11am. And JB and the rest weren't around. Only Poh How, me and saiful. Derrek, our coach wasn't there too. Only the seniors, Leo, Nadj and Debra. And we spend our time fencing with one another. Novices is coming. And i'm doing my best to be inside the team.

Went off at 12pm from school. cause i have to rush to Shang for my STAR team training. Today was on Chinese VIP service and cuisine. Conducted by the supervisor, Chris Ho.It was okay la. Learn all sort of chinese cuisine. And VIP tips.

Went to bed straight away from that. Cause i'm too sleepy and not in the mood. My mind is totally thinking of me hurting her and causing her to cry. And i thought she was angry. And so i went to bed while waiting for her to cool down.

Neither did i expect that she text me, suggesting to meet. And how unlucky can i be. The phone was down. I didn't realise there were no battery left. I'm just afraid she might think i purposely off-ed the phone and don't wanna meet with her. I do. In fact, i wanna go down to my knees and ask for her acceptance to my apologies. But i just don't have the chance to.

I'm hungry. I wanna eat at adam road again today.
But i have no appetite. Cause i hurt her. It's something i can never forgive myself.
I just wanna apologize.

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