Thursday, June 28, 2007 | 11:13:00 PM
Let's start with the result of my Common Test
El Tech- B
Maths-A2
Eng. Mat.-D
Eng.Drw-C
Autocad-? Probably an AD?
El Tech- B
Maths-A2
Eng. Mat.-D
Eng.Drw-C
Autocad-? Probably an AD?
It sucks doesn't it? i know. i studied. probably not hard enough i guess? well. i do need to pull up my sock. phew. time to study hard. anw. my scholarship interview is this tuesday. Formal wear. I don't know if i can make it through or not. I mean with this results? I don't think so.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MOM!
Mom's birthday is on the 28 june. hehes. Love you mum. Stay young? Hehes
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It's been a few days since blog. Been busy with a new term in NP. classes, lectures, tutorials, fencing and stuff. Really had no time. New topics, tiring days, tough fencing training.. all those really wear me out. but luckily get i get to slot in some time to be with my girlfriend. she's starting her new term and been busy with studies. Must be tough fer her to always stay back after school to study with her friends. i wish i can help her in her studies somehow. but i'm seriously am dumb. i'm not a clever person. And i am useless. But anyway,all the best to you in your O's, my girlfriend.
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I' m Sorry
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Saturday, June 23, 2007 | 1:39:00 PM
HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY, BABY
WHEN I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES
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LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU
I SEE MY WHERE FUTURE LIES
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FOREVER AND EVER AFTER
THIS LOVE WON'T FADE AWAY
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THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING
AND I PROMISE YOU THAT
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NOTHING MAKE ME FEEL THIS ELATED BEFORE
I WILL NEVER QUESTION US
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THOSE LOVE AND THOSE CARE
YOU'RE MY ONLY REASON
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I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO, I SWEAR
WHY I'M STILL SMILING
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Thursday, June 21, 2007 | 1:20:00 AM
Wednesday. The day i spend my time with my girlfriend finally! Initial plan was changed but somehow get to bypass it all. Jeez. i was a sleeping log today. My sis wake me up asking me if i want to send them fer their classes. cuz i offered to send them. just spending time with my two lil' sis. and i wake up. bathe and stuff. was still sleepy though. It was morning to me. cuz they always go fer classes in the morning. send them and dive to my bed again as soon as i reach home. Guess what? I found out it was actually 2.30 pm! i was like couldn't believe it. thought it was like 8 or 9 am.. my god. and soon after that. found out my girlfriend was a bit step ahead of me. as in she's still in bed at 3+! Silly lazybum.
Well. tomorrow is... err. i mean today(thursday) is my class bbq. It will be held at East Coast. So happy. It's been long since i had a bbq stuff. since class chalet? Wonder how will it go. And they ask to have my girlfriend tag along. the better!
I'm hungry. Ate only few bites of burger today. Need FOOd immediately! Am i fat? maybe i am afterall. Life will suck soon. School starting. Modules and test? iwll fail badly. either two or one module down. time to face the world. this ain't no longer secondary school! I got to get back to my path again and start my stupid brain going on. Gosh. if i were to choose JC or MI previously, i will have mental breakdown. Yikes!
And i just receive news! There's a ncc course coming in again in july. camp feast! Should i go? If i go. i will leave my girlfriend alone. No way! I will decide later. I just want more time with my girlfriend fer now.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 | 11:26:00 PM
Once again. i'm back from my camp. Spec course camp. seriously. i'm shag..
This is how it goes.
-(17 June 2007)
Sunday night i book in around 10+. Meet up with mates at YCK mrt. then decided not to walk in. So we hail a cab and zoom in the camp. Had some fun and jokes in the SEA office. Which about 20+ clts was there fer the course. Briefing took more than an hour. cuz we spend most of the time joking around and sickeningly not listening to the briefing. And.. spend the night in the office. My god. It was super cold. The office was like Antartica? err. North Pole i guess. And had a morning call with her. Though i was half sleepy, but i will never miss the chance talking on the phone with her. and we end quite late. And which i'm require to wake early? I DON'T CARE! Next time, let's chat fer 24 hours? Tell me bout it ..
This is how it goes.
-(17 June 2007)
Sunday night i book in around 10+. Meet up with mates at YCK mrt. then decided not to walk in. So we hail a cab and zoom in the camp. Had some fun and jokes in the SEA office. Which about 20+ clts was there fer the course. Briefing took more than an hour. cuz we spend most of the time joking around and sickeningly not listening to the briefing. And.. spend the night in the office. My god. It was super cold. The office was like Antartica? err. North Pole i guess. And had a morning call with her. Though i was half sleepy, but i will never miss the chance talking on the phone with her. and we end quite late. And which i'm require to wake early? I DON'T CARE! Next time, let's chat fer 24 hours? Tell me bout it ..
-(18 june 2007)
Cadets came in around 0730.. some were late. Well. some common mess up of attendance. I was like totally sleepy all the way. Spend the day try to squeeze in some sleeping moments as much as i can. eg? lunch and dinner. Teach some theory and conduct test. lunch and dinner was edible. Spend most time interacting with cadets. They were a bunch of nice kids. some aren't. Spoilt? I don't know. Lights out 1130. Bathe. Slept fer awhile till 2+. Wakey! Phone call time! Gosh. It was great hearing your voice. Converse and exchange talks all the way. I ain't elaborating that. It's between me and her. And finally slept.
-(19 june 2007)
Last day. Totally shag out. rush here and there fer time. Teach the remaining. Area cleaning. Photo taking. Award presentation. In no.3(Navy-uniform)! The rest of the day? In no.4(Army). Totally hot. I mean as in hot, the weather and sweat. Not that hot as in appearance and self. What were you thinking? *Chuckles*. And departure from cadets! Great being with you all.
Congrats to all the new specialists!!
Okays. Back to life. I went home in no.3. Lazy to change i guess. Head out to MRT. Yup. Was supposed to meet someone. but was cancelled. so i head home. Drop by a provision shop and bought myself a Vanilla Coke and a Crunch. Throat was asking for a coke. Took 190. Ate the chocos and drunk myself with the coke. And i did a good deed today! Gave seat to a small kid and his mum despite my bagpack and stuffs. A good deed will bigets a helping hand one day when you need them..
Finally i am on my holiday terms. no more camps or anything. Need a break man! Gosh. I need a space to breathe and enjoy my holiday. As i planned. With girlfriend,24 hr a day/7 days a week. Be having class BBQ this thursday. Just been informed. Fantastic Four? Transformers? Here i come. Going to catch it first-hand with my girlfriend..
Cadets came in around 0730.. some were late. Well. some common mess up of attendance. I was like totally sleepy all the way. Spend the day try to squeeze in some sleeping moments as much as i can. eg? lunch and dinner. Teach some theory and conduct test. lunch and dinner was edible. Spend most time interacting with cadets. They were a bunch of nice kids. some aren't. Spoilt? I don't know. Lights out 1130. Bathe. Slept fer awhile till 2+. Wakey! Phone call time! Gosh. It was great hearing your voice. Converse and exchange talks all the way. I ain't elaborating that. It's between me and her. And finally slept.
-(19 june 2007)
Last day. Totally shag out. rush here and there fer time. Teach the remaining. Area cleaning. Photo taking. Award presentation. In no.3(Navy-uniform)! The rest of the day? In no.4(Army). Totally hot. I mean as in hot, the weather and sweat. Not that hot as in appearance and self. What were you thinking? *Chuckles*. And departure from cadets! Great being with you all.
Congrats to all the new specialists!!
Okays. Back to life. I went home in no.3. Lazy to change i guess. Head out to MRT. Yup. Was supposed to meet someone. but was cancelled. so i head home. Drop by a provision shop and bought myself a Vanilla Coke and a Crunch. Throat was asking for a coke. Took 190. Ate the chocos and drunk myself with the coke. And i did a good deed today! Gave seat to a small kid and his mum despite my bagpack and stuffs. A good deed will bigets a helping hand one day when you need them..
Finally i am on my holiday terms. no more camps or anything. Need a break man! Gosh. I need a space to breathe and enjoy my holiday. As i planned. With girlfriend,24 hr a day/7 days a week. Be having class BBQ this thursday. Just been informed. Fantastic Four? Transformers? Here i come. Going to catch it first-hand with my girlfriend..
Saturday, June 16, 2007 | 10:50:00 PM
It's saturday! Saturday nite fever!
Gosh. i'm sick. got some temp left. the pain from sunburn is finally gone. phew. Thanks to-
ALOE VERA Sunburn lotions! Feel like i'm promoting this product.
Well. lets start with yesterday. hmm. home? ice cream. and slacking. not forgetting t.v! and i P.S my frens fer the steamboat dinner thingy. i'm still tired and sick. what can i do?
Today? Home again! i feel like in prison la. stuck in this four walls. i wana go out. but no one want to go out with me. boring la. I still miss my girlfriend! hopefully, i'm meeting her tommorow! finally!
Change some stuff in my blog.. walk around the house. searching fer food like a hungry ghost. lazing on the bed. play guitar. make some noise with my awful voice as i sing in the toilet while bathing and in my bedroom. checking out mails, msn and frenster. and waiting fer an important fone call. but get none.. that's what i did fer today. Boring? i argee! hi-five!
I need to go to the muvees urgently! shit me too much fer not catching my favourite muvee! spiderman 3!! grrr.. and i'm not gonna miss fantastic four! no way no way! And sure fer sure i'm catching it with my girlfriend! after my camp i guess?
Thats all fer today! Enjoy your day people!
"Drum beats and Heart beats
Both sound the same dont't they?
but tell you, both are different
one is within you, one is outer
once you mistake, you are listening to the wrong one
and it might end your life
just like life and love
treat both seriously
keep it strong and your beliefs
make it pass way through
any barrier or obstacles
know that there's always someone
being there to help you
in your journey
in your endeavours"
Gosh. i'm sick. got some temp left. the pain from sunburn is finally gone. phew. Thanks to-
ALOE VERA Sunburn lotions! Feel like i'm promoting this product.
Well. lets start with yesterday. hmm. home? ice cream. and slacking. not forgetting t.v! and i P.S my frens fer the steamboat dinner thingy. i'm still tired and sick. what can i do?
Today? Home again! i feel like in prison la. stuck in this four walls. i wana go out. but no one want to go out with me. boring la. I still miss my girlfriend! hopefully, i'm meeting her tommorow! finally!
Change some stuff in my blog.. walk around the house. searching fer food like a hungry ghost. lazing on the bed. play guitar. make some noise with my awful voice as i sing in the toilet while bathing and in my bedroom. checking out mails, msn and frenster. and waiting fer an important fone call. but get none.. that's what i did fer today. Boring? i argee! hi-five!
I need to go to the muvees urgently! shit me too much fer not catching my favourite muvee! spiderman 3!! grrr.. and i'm not gonna miss fantastic four! no way no way! And sure fer sure i'm catching it with my girlfriend! after my camp i guess?
Thats all fer today! Enjoy your day people!
"Drum beats and Heart beats
Both sound the same dont't they?
but tell you, both are different
one is within you, one is outer
once you mistake, you are listening to the wrong one
and it might end your life
just like life and love
treat both seriously
keep it strong and your beliefs
make it pass way through
any barrier or obstacles
know that there's always someone
being there to help you
in your journey
in your endeavours"
Friday, June 15, 2007 | 10:25:00 PM
Finally! i'm back! Safe and sound! Just some severe sunburn on my arms and thighs! And face too! It was damn red two days ago. Now it should have cool down. Anyways, I went to kayaking on Monday to Thursday!! Fun and tiring! I took two of the three days kayaking. High currents, water spout, raining, blazing hot sun and tiring arm. What do you expect? Hehes! And the ration was like so err... okay la. But can’t get any second serving. I’m hungry Okays!! Gosh. I think I shed some weight. I’m definitely sure of this. The total strength of the cadets was 104. Or is it 103? I can’t remember. And the CLTS was like less than twenty? All were assigned to various groups. Coxswain Team (instructors that went to kayak with the cadet, leading them and to ensure the safety), Sea Support-Admin Team (they were the one who take down the attendance and collect the cadet’s valuables), Sea Support-Logistic Team (in charge of rations, store items like paddles and kayaks) and Boat crews-(those who standby in the safety boats and sometimes drive them). Can you believe that they were about 8-10 safety boats for this event?? Safety comes first! I’m in the coxswain team! And we had to pay around 14 bucks for the sleeveless FBT shirt! It was worth it though. But the NCC crest logo was kind of spoiling the design. But it’s okay. This is true facts- all had severe sunburn. Hehes!
**First day, we report and slept at the sembawang camp. It was the day for administrative stuff and to know the cadets well. And had phone calls with Alane around 2 in the morning. I miss her totally.
**Second day, time for the launch off!! From sembawang to changi point. It was the lunch point. The water was rough and unpredictable and constantly changing weather was like fcuk. Hehes! From there, went to changi naval base-our ending point of the day and that’s where we crash for the night. This is something interesting! We actually went into the yatch club pool! We aren’t supposed too! But we did! It was damn cooling. After hard day of kayaking and heating up, we had a cool dive. Gosh! And some of us went to disturb the H.I.J sailing girls. It wasn’t me. I swear!
**Third day, from changi naval base we head to east coast but we were fast and then, change of instructions! Grrr!! We went to marina and make a u-turn to fill in time. It was exhausting when your mind actually thought it was east coast but den you find out you’re going somewhere further and had to make a u-turn just to reach later. And the current was so rough that your kayak is going up and down the wave. Poof! Lunch was 12pm. After that, head back to changi naval base. More sunburn. Nice! Same place we crash for the day. I forget that I’m supposed to text Alane bout my condition on Tuesday so I text her on Wednesday night. Sorry baby.
**last day (Thursday), I didn’t want to kayak. I was supposed to. But I wasn’t feeling that well and I’m having motion sickness. Just a minor one. And Ben took over. He wanted to kayak so I guess it was a nice chance for him to. The rest of the CLTs who wasn’t kayaking took the shuttle bus to Pasir Ris Park! Play the playground there! There’s still a small kid inside me. We play and play while waiting for them to beach in for lunch. And guess what. The cadets were exhausted and they couldn’t reach in time. So they were tow back by the safety boats. We had lunch there. And then, they set off again to the last destination-sembawang yatch club again. That’s where the expedition ends. But around 22 report sick. And many more during kayaking. Supposed to reach by 4. But they reach by 5.30. Can’t blame them. It was tiring. Wash kayak and stuff. Bathe and get ready for the closing of AKE. Fall-in and got their cert. and had some picture taking before everyone left, smiling with fatigue and keeping their own kayaking memories. And all of us crash at sun plaza Mac for dinner! We spend about 2 hours of chit chatting. We actually plan to escape from AAR (after action report). Hehes! Got our bags ready to scram. But luckily there wasn’t any. And I head home after that.
three cheers to everyone! Endurance and focus was the thing they had to complete all this. Most of all, I miss my girlfriend. It’s been like 6 days ever since I met her. Sigh. I need to see her a.s.ap before I set for another NCC camp- specs course on Sunday night. I love my girlfriend. Muaahhhss! I’m having slight fever now. And the motion sickness still lingers in my head. Having some tempt to vomit. Gosh. Thank god I swallow two panadol yesterday. Thus, the reason why I slept thru the night around 12+... I thought I can take a nap and wake up around 1 am to be online. I’m worn out. I’m burn out. I’m black out!
Here are some picas taken during the kayaking expeditions.
(there's still more but i can't get hold of them) *sorry*
will upload more of them when i get hold of it on next post.
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Fellows CLTs after AKE
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FBT sleeveless shirt! (COSWAIN)
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**First day, we report and slept at the sembawang camp. It was the day for administrative stuff and to know the cadets well. And had phone calls with Alane around 2 in the morning. I miss her totally.
**Second day, time for the launch off!! From sembawang to changi point. It was the lunch point. The water was rough and unpredictable and constantly changing weather was like fcuk. Hehes! From there, went to changi naval base-our ending point of the day and that’s where we crash for the night. This is something interesting! We actually went into the yatch club pool! We aren’t supposed too! But we did! It was damn cooling. After hard day of kayaking and heating up, we had a cool dive. Gosh! And some of us went to disturb the H.I.J sailing girls. It wasn’t me. I swear!
**Third day, from changi naval base we head to east coast but we were fast and then, change of instructions! Grrr!! We went to marina and make a u-turn to fill in time. It was exhausting when your mind actually thought it was east coast but den you find out you’re going somewhere further and had to make a u-turn just to reach later. And the current was so rough that your kayak is going up and down the wave. Poof! Lunch was 12pm. After that, head back to changi naval base. More sunburn. Nice! Same place we crash for the day. I forget that I’m supposed to text Alane bout my condition on Tuesday so I text her on Wednesday night. Sorry baby.
**last day (Thursday), I didn’t want to kayak. I was supposed to. But I wasn’t feeling that well and I’m having motion sickness. Just a minor one. And Ben took over. He wanted to kayak so I guess it was a nice chance for him to. The rest of the CLTs who wasn’t kayaking took the shuttle bus to Pasir Ris Park! Play the playground there! There’s still a small kid inside me. We play and play while waiting for them to beach in for lunch. And guess what. The cadets were exhausted and they couldn’t reach in time. So they were tow back by the safety boats. We had lunch there. And then, they set off again to the last destination-sembawang yatch club again. That’s where the expedition ends. But around 22 report sick. And many more during kayaking. Supposed to reach by 4. But they reach by 5.30. Can’t blame them. It was tiring. Wash kayak and stuff. Bathe and get ready for the closing of AKE. Fall-in and got their cert. and had some picture taking before everyone left, smiling with fatigue and keeping their own kayaking memories. And all of us crash at sun plaza Mac for dinner! We spend about 2 hours of chit chatting. We actually plan to escape from AAR (after action report). Hehes! Got our bags ready to scram. But luckily there wasn’t any. And I head home after that.
three cheers to everyone! Endurance and focus was the thing they had to complete all this. Most of all, I miss my girlfriend. It’s been like 6 days ever since I met her. Sigh. I need to see her a.s.ap before I set for another NCC camp- specs course on Sunday night. I love my girlfriend. Muaahhhss! I’m having slight fever now. And the motion sickness still lingers in my head. Having some tempt to vomit. Gosh. Thank god I swallow two panadol yesterday. Thus, the reason why I slept thru the night around 12+... I thought I can take a nap and wake up around 1 am to be online. I’m worn out. I’m burn out. I’m black out!
Here are some picas taken during the kayaking expeditions.
(there's still more but i can't get hold of them) *sorry*
will upload more of them when i get hold of it on next post.
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Fellows CLTs after AKE
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FBT sleeveless shirt! (COSWAIN)
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Monday, June 11, 2007 | 12:06:00 AM
It's monday! i'll be going to the sembawang shipyard first then to sembawang yatch club! Kayaking expedition!! yeah!! can't wait to get burn and worn out! Lobster me on thursday! but in the morning, i will be meeting alane. sending her to harbourfront! then head to school!
I'm going to miss her! so much! don't ask how much! hehes! just to say. i love my girlfriend!
she's the one fer me. she's my everything. i do anything to make her happy and to shower her with love and cares! thank you fer taking care of me alane. mmmuuuaaahhhh! you're the best!
Goodbye people! takecare!
Courtesy Of Alane! She made this fer me!
A picture of the young me and her!
Sunday, June 10, 2007 | 12:07:00 AM
I got to say. i'm worried. the reason? i ain't gonna elaborate. this isn't a dwell and sorrow blog. but i am reali scared i will not be blogging anymore.. maybe? you know why i stare at you? cuz it may be the last glance i gonna have. a last dinner. a last date. a last sweet whisper..
anw. stop all the paranoia. and let's get down to business. today.. it's saturday. duh. who doesn't know that. and i woke up at 11! i slept yesterday around 5. hehes! funny thing is me and alane try to call one another but couldn't get through one another! damn it! hehes! i call, she din hear. she call, i din hear. hehes! oh god. we should like really had a nice night chat yesterday. after 11, i bathe, watch tv(MTV). oh ya. the white stripes! the new video->Icky Thump! omg. the song sucks and the video yucks! the cheers for my all time favourite-> The All-American Rejects! Hehes! nice songs they cmpose and nice videos in each songs! that's what i call.. You rawks!! yeah. okay.. get back to my life.. after tv. i play com. play c.s fer a while. den i head to kitchen fer lunch. mum made some fish burgers and fries. and trust me. i gorge on them. hungry la! den. i play my guitar. nah. nothing new. just re-playing everything. gotta always flex you fingers or it will get stiffen up. after that. i re-confirm my date with alane. after that, i watch some vcd with my sis.. and ta..dah!! i change and head out to meet alane. mummy was nagging saying i always go out, and i will do something wrong. hello? i'm in poly now.. ain't sec sch. ain't pri. i will turn 18 soon.. legal age? right? and i know what i'm doing la. don't worries okay? gosh. give me a break..
we went to causeway. ate at banquet. the bbq chicken stall sucks. and alane's chicken mince meat noodle oso sucks! i taste the fishball. and my taste bud went 'is that food or shit?' hehes! after that, we rush to the libary. cuz it's closing soon. borrow some books. and head home. finally after my common test i get to go out with alane. sorry baby. it was fun though today! hehes! and our next date? it's gonna be after my kayaking. provided i'm still alive la. that's fer today.. tomorrow? no idea.. maybe spring cleaning or meeting alane, provided she's free.. and tommorow will be the day where i love alane more than today.. hehes!!
anw. stop all the paranoia. and let's get down to business. today.. it's saturday. duh. who doesn't know that. and i woke up at 11! i slept yesterday around 5. hehes! funny thing is me and alane try to call one another but couldn't get through one another! damn it! hehes! i call, she din hear. she call, i din hear. hehes! oh god. we should like really had a nice night chat yesterday. after 11, i bathe, watch tv(MTV). oh ya. the white stripes! the new video->Icky Thump! omg. the song sucks and the video yucks! the cheers for my all time favourite-> The All-American Rejects! Hehes! nice songs they cmpose and nice videos in each songs! that's what i call.. You rawks!! yeah. okay.. get back to my life.. after tv. i play com. play c.s fer a while. den i head to kitchen fer lunch. mum made some fish burgers and fries. and trust me. i gorge on them. hungry la! den. i play my guitar. nah. nothing new. just re-playing everything. gotta always flex you fingers or it will get stiffen up. after that. i re-confirm my date with alane. after that, i watch some vcd with my sis.. and ta..dah!! i change and head out to meet alane. mummy was nagging saying i always go out, and i will do something wrong. hello? i'm in poly now.. ain't sec sch. ain't pri. i will turn 18 soon.. legal age? right? and i know what i'm doing la. don't worries okay? gosh. give me a break..
we went to causeway. ate at banquet. the bbq chicken stall sucks. and alane's chicken mince meat noodle oso sucks! i taste the fishball. and my taste bud went 'is that food or shit?' hehes! after that, we rush to the libary. cuz it's closing soon. borrow some books. and head home. finally after my common test i get to go out with alane. sorry baby. it was fun though today! hehes! and our next date? it's gonna be after my kayaking. provided i'm still alive la. that's fer today.. tomorrow? no idea.. maybe spring cleaning or meeting alane, provided she's free.. and tommorow will be the day where i love alane more than today.. hehes!!
"Do you feel like you're on the moon?
when the rain doesn't fall on you
Do you think love is all fated?
when you know you will get addicted
i know nothing i say nothing
close eye speak no lie
why is the pianoist strumming
when the piano has no strings
am i the one one hearing
or am i the one deceiving
myself, my mind and my soul
falling again to the hole
no fear of the evil
people call him the daredevil
i no hero
but i'm sure a zero
but i only wanna be sure
that i ain't dreaming
i ain't hallucinating
the world i'm in
the sky is the limit
your perception says it
all or nothing
it's only you and your thing
to control to decide
you got the remote"
Saturday, June 9, 2007 | 12:18:00 AM
Boo! well. pardon me if i put a malay song.. after all i'm a malay-chinese. but it's nice. the chorus is in english. and it's an indonesian song. strip from the soundtrack of 'My Heart movie'. Enjoy.
Finally. The Holiday is here. envy some people who actually had holidays earlier. But it's okay.
I actually was in the holiday mood since last week!! *giggles* sorry la! can't help it. well. i hope i will grade 3.5 or 3 for common test. i'm seriously woried la. omg. but what's done is done. No way you can turn back time. can you? learn from mistakes. that's all. and i'm really looking forward to my hols. sojini says there will be a class chalet? i want! and i'll be having a steamboat outing with crownies mates this friday. err.. the girls suggest the name crownies. not me. hehes. seriously. i really am empty block. i have no plan for my holidays. but i want to spend most of them with alane. i hope she won't be that busy. will she? i have no idea. i'm really looking forward to be with her more. and. should i be as forgiving as i was last time? sometimes when you're kind and friendly to everyone, people will just treat you like a piece of toy that they can just throw after used, break you as when they want and treat you like a piece of rubbish. maybe i should be more forgiving. everyone needs a chance to repent. i know. but what if i'm being grind with more unexpected stuff. does everyone make good use of their second chance? i didn't have any second chance before in my life. not once. once i fall, that's it. no one give me another chance. sometimes i wish i had one to change the whole scenario. i guess i have to forgive and forget. but i swear to god. another blow, i'm sure gonna have a massive breakdown. i won't go too far bout this but let keep this straight. i'm really am confused. i just will lead my life now as it is. i won't run away from anything. i will face them should it come. so long i know i'm clear and have an open runaway to find my way up again.
i love games. wanna play with me, you're on! and well, i really need to work again. i'm super duper broke. and i want to buy many stuff. gosh. rob bank? maybe.. hehes! did i mention i love alane? i didn't? Now i just did..
Finally. The Holiday is here. envy some people who actually had holidays earlier. But it's okay.
I actually was in the holiday mood since last week!! *giggles* sorry la! can't help it. well. i hope i will grade 3.5 or 3 for common test. i'm seriously woried la. omg. but what's done is done. No way you can turn back time. can you? learn from mistakes. that's all. and i'm really looking forward to my hols. sojini says there will be a class chalet? i want! and i'll be having a steamboat outing with crownies mates this friday. err.. the girls suggest the name crownies. not me. hehes. seriously. i really am empty block. i have no plan for my holidays. but i want to spend most of them with alane. i hope she won't be that busy. will she? i have no idea. i'm really looking forward to be with her more. and. should i be as forgiving as i was last time? sometimes when you're kind and friendly to everyone, people will just treat you like a piece of toy that they can just throw after used, break you as when they want and treat you like a piece of rubbish. maybe i should be more forgiving. everyone needs a chance to repent. i know. but what if i'm being grind with more unexpected stuff. does everyone make good use of their second chance? i didn't have any second chance before in my life. not once. once i fall, that's it. no one give me another chance. sometimes i wish i had one to change the whole scenario. i guess i have to forgive and forget. but i swear to god. another blow, i'm sure gonna have a massive breakdown. i won't go too far bout this but let keep this straight. i'm really am confused. i just will lead my life now as it is. i won't run away from anything. i will face them should it come. so long i know i'm clear and have an open runaway to find my way up again.
i love games. wanna play with me, you're on! and well, i really need to work again. i'm super duper broke. and i want to buy many stuff. gosh. rob bank? maybe.. hehes! did i mention i love alane? i didn't? Now i just did..
"i carry your heart with me,
i carry it in my heart and i'm never without it.
anywhere i go, you go, my dear.
and whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling.
i fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.
i want no world for beautiful, you are my world my true.
it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the tree called life
which grows higher and higher
than the soul can hope
or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart,i carry it in my heart.
"i don't know what it is about you that closes and opens,
only something in me understands
the voice in your eyes is deeper than all roses."
Friday, June 8, 2007 | 1:15:00 PM
Guess what? i think i'm gonna score well in my Autocad. for the first time, i manage to finish on time. furthermore, i even manage to the the dimensioning! i think an A or B? i hope so.
well. finally, i feel secure and free of the worries that i have? am i obsessive? or am i just paranoid? i really don't know. and the answer to it is the confession. and i found the door to slam the past away. thanks to you. i promise i ain't gonna repeat this ever again. i will only hurt me and you. no way. no way.
i guess i can leave with a peace of mind. no worries or anything. but if i'm given a choice, i leave you alone. why in the world would i love to do that. Rather, i love to spend time with you than leaving you.. can i see you before i leave? i just wanna plant a goodbye kiss. and a warm missing hug. can i?
well. finally, i feel secure and free of the worries that i have? am i obsessive? or am i just paranoid? i really don't know. and the answer to it is the confession. and i found the door to slam the past away. thanks to you. i promise i ain't gonna repeat this ever again. i will only hurt me and you. no way. no way.
i guess i can leave with a peace of mind. no worries or anything. but if i'm given a choice, i leave you alone. why in the world would i love to do that. Rather, i love to spend time with you than leaving you.. can i see you before i leave? i just wanna plant a goodbye kiss. and a warm missing hug. can i?
"..look into my eye and tell me
is the sun just bright or isit shining on and on
let my new shoes walk with you
to wherever you'll take me
lie with me by the beachsand
spending one night with me
gazing at the stars as we hold each other hand
i swear i will plant an addictive kiss upon your cheeks
do you? or will you?
feel and love the moment
where shooting stars will fly pass us
where the clouds will gather to form a heart
under the cold moonlight
with roses by your side
growing wild and bold
drive pass the time
stop it and shut the chimes
and let us take control
of the things that we want
in you and me.."
Thursday, June 7, 2007 | 11:15:00 PM
Finally, i'm back. well.. i still have exam tommorow. but it's autocad. which i really have no idea how to study. i'm already in my holiday mood.
Here's prediction of my exams:
Module Difficulty Prediction/Grade
1)El-Tech-- Okay B or C
2)EG1 Maths-- Easy A or B
3)Engineering Drawing-- Hard D or E
4)Engineering Material-- Hard C or D
5)Autocad-- ????? Hope a B
i'll be taking autocad tomorrow.. wish me luck. thanks!
well.. many things happen these few days. but i'm sorry. i'm really not in the mood today to blog. i will just pour my sorrow. i need someone to talk to..
i'm just being a freaky ass who always get paranoid and feel inferior. Feeling the fear of losing something important. I need time to overcome this all. i never thought i be this way. never.
shit me. freak me. shout in my ears ' You asshole!! what's wrong with you!' go and die! Dont worry! i will drown myself. in a terrible way as possible. goodbye world. well.. i'll be leaving on monday till thursday. I got AKE. Annual Kayaking Expedition. that way i can jump and smile my life away. but i will miss my love. Terribly. four days i will be leaving her. i'm sorry. maybe monday i will see the last of her. or the last of me. if anything happen to me. if anything happen when i'm not with her. i hope she will takecare of herself when i'm gone. hope she will take her medicine. she always have flu you know? and cough too. and she always claim she doesn't.. cute isn't she? please take when i'm gone, please.. i hope she will not stay up too late. will eat her breakfast, lunch and dinner. i won't be around to remind her.. do takecare. i promise if i return, i will help you to borrow the books that you want. bring you to the movies. eat with you anything that you crave for. anything. just tell me your wish. it will be my command. but seriously i don't know. the sea is wide. never doubt its capability. please. i want be with her. from now till the day i grow old. i want grow old with her. i want to amke her my bride. izit just a dream? i want to make it real. since the day i became an item with her. ever since, i put my everything for the r/s. i did everything to make her happy and give her whatever she wants. i try my very best to be fully commited to this r/s. simply-i love her. alane, do you know how much this love i have for you means? everything baby. i know its may be a three word nothing much. but i sincerely saying this. i never felt this love before. i always failed to express to her my feelings. i'm not a poet. i'm not a sweet talking charm boy. i'm a zero. that's me. i just feel i'm lacking of something. am i? maybe my absence can make me sort things out. maybe beyond the horizon, across the line of the sea, the sunset and sunrise.. i can feel what i am. maybe i will get the answer. maybe it will make me a better person.. i don't know. pray hard i'll be alive.. so that when i return, the first i will do is to ring her and whisper at her ear.. I LOVE YOU.
will it be the same when i return or will history takes its place again? i resent...
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i want to hold this hand forever. can i?
Here's prediction of my exams:
Module Difficulty Prediction/Grade
1)El-Tech-- Okay B or C
2)EG1 Maths-- Easy A or B
3)Engineering Drawing-- Hard D or E
4)Engineering Material-- Hard C or D
5)Autocad-- ????? Hope a B
i'll be taking autocad tomorrow.. wish me luck. thanks!
well.. many things happen these few days. but i'm sorry. i'm really not in the mood today to blog. i will just pour my sorrow. i need someone to talk to..
i'm just being a freaky ass who always get paranoid and feel inferior. Feeling the fear of losing something important. I need time to overcome this all. i never thought i be this way. never.
shit me. freak me. shout in my ears ' You asshole!! what's wrong with you!' go and die! Dont worry! i will drown myself. in a terrible way as possible. goodbye world. well.. i'll be leaving on monday till thursday. I got AKE. Annual Kayaking Expedition. that way i can jump and smile my life away. but i will miss my love. Terribly. four days i will be leaving her. i'm sorry. maybe monday i will see the last of her. or the last of me. if anything happen to me. if anything happen when i'm not with her. i hope she will takecare of herself when i'm gone. hope she will take her medicine. she always have flu you know? and cough too. and she always claim she doesn't.. cute isn't she? please take when i'm gone, please.. i hope she will not stay up too late. will eat her breakfast, lunch and dinner. i won't be around to remind her.. do takecare. i promise if i return, i will help you to borrow the books that you want. bring you to the movies. eat with you anything that you crave for. anything. just tell me your wish. it will be my command. but seriously i don't know. the sea is wide. never doubt its capability. please. i want be with her. from now till the day i grow old. i want grow old with her. i want to amke her my bride. izit just a dream? i want to make it real. since the day i became an item with her. ever since, i put my everything for the r/s. i did everything to make her happy and give her whatever she wants. i try my very best to be fully commited to this r/s. simply-i love her. alane, do you know how much this love i have for you means? everything baby. i know its may be a three word nothing much. but i sincerely saying this. i never felt this love before. i always failed to express to her my feelings. i'm not a poet. i'm not a sweet talking charm boy. i'm a zero. that's me. i just feel i'm lacking of something. am i? maybe my absence can make me sort things out. maybe beyond the horizon, across the line of the sea, the sunset and sunrise.. i can feel what i am. maybe i will get the answer. maybe it will make me a better person.. i don't know. pray hard i'll be alive.. so that when i return, the first i will do is to ring her and whisper at her ear.. I LOVE YOU.
will it be the same when i return or will history takes its place again? i resent...
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i want to hold this hand forever. can i?
Sunday, June 3, 2007 | 5:46:00 PM
Tomorrow is my first paper. wish me luck people. im having those jitters now..
(exhale).. i hope i wil do well. i don't know. this is my first exam i'm taking in ngee ann. i don't know if i got what it takes.
okay. let's keep this short.
today, my dad and mum went to do their grocery shopping. and they bought fer me food and drinks. yummy!! hehes. and my dad was like all day long since he came back, fixing the the blown bulbs in the house. hehes. gosh. and he clean all the fan and re-blow the aircon and topping up the gas. smell nice.!! tonight, i will breathe heavily as i sleep! chuckles. and my sis both spend time playing with their plasticine and create some weird cakes out of it. err.. i ain't gonna taste those. i'm sure of it! hehes.
i'm waiting fer my alane to call. oh ya. i still haven't had my haircut yet. lazy. i'm a super duper lazybum. hehes. lazy i guess??
-well, gotta go. i'm still halfway revising-
I
.:miss alane:.
1:53:00 PM
I don't care what people might think bout me. coz i'm being myself. like or hate it? leave and stay? up to you. i ain't no decide fer you. aight?
this was meant fer yesterday post. and baby.. stop bailing your fren out. they wana meet you. i mean they MISS you. i'm sure they do. it's like been months since you people had fun together. i guess? go and make it up to them please. i mean if i were them i would feel the same if my fren did that to me. how many times they tried to ask you out and you PS them?? i don' want them to think that ever since you got bf, you don't need them anymore. i don't want to be the cause of it all. i didn't do anything. i never restrict you at all. never did. well, yesterday you had to follow you sis. but next time, if your fren ask you out, go for it okay?? have fun with them. i can see from your eyes, you need them. you miss them as much as they do. okays? (smoochies)..
okay get back to my story. yesterday was somehow an ass killing activity that i did. i spend time mugging and playing com. >>i was bored okay<<. hehes. i had an ass killing pain activity. hehes. i spend a 3hr under the block waiting. hehes. but it's worth it. i miss her. and don't ask fer any stuff or whatever. just her. the presence makes me smile. miss you baby. just a glance can make my heart melt and ease my misses. and it did!! call me crazy.
and... today is my last post till i end my xams. sorry. a man got to do what a man gotta do.hehes. i miss my frens. my pals, best buddies. the crownies!! please ask me out people during june. i miss you guys like fcuk!!
but i'm waiting to end my xams cuz i'll be going to the muvees with my baby. before i go fer my kayaking expedition. sorry had to leave you baby. muahhhsss!!
"time after time i sneak
i didn't know what i seek
for and the reasons behind it
but i know my line are that weak
after all, i'm the geek and a zero
i'm neither a hit or a hero
trust me, not hot or hunk
i'm just a lil' boy with a bagpack
that know what he want
to love and make good use of the pact
that he make with his girlfriend
to last,to love, to engage and marry in the end"
Alane, je t'aime..
this was meant fer yesterday post. and baby.. stop bailing your fren out. they wana meet you. i mean they MISS you. i'm sure they do. it's like been months since you people had fun together. i guess? go and make it up to them please. i mean if i were them i would feel the same if my fren did that to me. how many times they tried to ask you out and you PS them?? i don' want them to think that ever since you got bf, you don't need them anymore. i don't want to be the cause of it all. i didn't do anything. i never restrict you at all. never did. well, yesterday you had to follow you sis. but next time, if your fren ask you out, go for it okay?? have fun with them. i can see from your eyes, you need them. you miss them as much as they do. okays? (smoochies)..
okay get back to my story. yesterday was somehow an ass killing activity that i did. i spend time mugging and playing com. >>i was bored okay<<. hehes. i had an ass killing pain activity. hehes. i spend a 3hr under the block waiting. hehes. but it's worth it. i miss her. and don't ask fer any stuff or whatever. just her. the presence makes me smile. miss you baby. just a glance can make my heart melt and ease my misses. and it did!! call me crazy.
and... today is my last post till i end my xams. sorry. a man got to do what a man gotta do.hehes. i miss my frens. my pals, best buddies. the crownies!! please ask me out people during june. i miss you guys like fcuk!!
but i'm waiting to end my xams cuz i'll be going to the muvees with my baby. before i go fer my kayaking expedition. sorry had to leave you baby. muahhhsss!!
"time after time i sneak
i didn't know what i seek
for and the reasons behind it
but i know my line are that weak
after all, i'm the geek and a zero
i'm neither a hit or a hero
trust me, not hot or hunk
i'm just a lil' boy with a bagpack
that know what he want
to love and make good use of the pact
that he make with his girlfriend
to last,to love, to engage and marry in the end"
Alane, je t'aime..
Saturday, June 2, 2007 | 3:42:00 PM
Runaway or stay away? yes. that's the solution people think of when they're in trouble and massive probs. No. i'm not doing all this stuff. i won't deny i'm not facing any heavy load. but i'm sure that nowadays people find the best solution to scram away. err? hello? does that solve any of your prob? it does? nah. it'll come again and next time, it'll drag you to a further deep hole. i been in one before. i face it rough against the coarse ground. down to the sickening scene. flat to the ground with no one hearing you. without anyone picking you up when you shouted for help. know how it feels. i takes few years till my saviour appear. and i feel bless to have her in my life now. feel the reason people. and you'll realise the solutions. "it's everyman for himself"..
I had a hard time to sleep recently. cuz mainly i'm scared to face my common test next week. i'm so not prepared. i reali don't know much stuff. hey, get this straight. i'm awake cuz i'm studying and bored stiff. but mostly, i really miss all those night calls that i always had with my baby. it's like riding a horse without a saddle. you sure get unstable and drop without it. i need it so badly. i'm sorry honey for having this grief situation. i know it's hard for me and you. i miss you. sometimes i would stare at my fone, thinking that you'll be giving me a holla. but then again realise, it ain't gonna happen. sniff.. and abruptly i would wake around 4 or 5 thinking of you. i can't sleep. i need your soft lullaby-voice to put me to sleep like i'm overdosed. i need your sugary sweet-whispers to let me be in a dream that behold nothing but me and you in our own moments together. i need those giggling sound to amuse me till i'm high up. those hiccups and those craps that make me laugh me lungs out in the middle of the night.
not anymore now. NO WAY! i rather die than facing all this crap. oh dear my love. i need no TLC or anyhthing. cuz i get those almost every single moment since i met you. oh yeah. you need it more baby. and i always failed to shower you with more. i guess i crossed the line today when i was pissed off when i met you. i just want to spend time with you more. i'm tired of waiting and missing you when you're busy and out. i wish i can be occupied when this happen. but you. you just can't get out of my mind. even when i'm in the shower, i think of you. tell me i'm crazy in love. tell me please. why does my heart only beats to your name? why my tears reflects only your image? why my hands yearns for yours?
i want be your fiance rather than your bf now that i am one. will you? i'll go down my knees. i show you my every mean. shine it on baby.
Bout my school. ain't nothing much. jsut normal routine. and sorry sojini for having you feel akward in the lift just now with 4 guys. your bad. hehes. and yeah derek. i'll be here to console you my sworn brother. look, maybe this help->i believe that if something bad or mishap happen in your life, soon, great and good things will come rolling you way. heys. we need to take pics soon. i miss taking with you. maybe with mark too. but we need bright environment then.. sorry mark, just kidding.
hmm.. i'll be meeting my baby 2mr. that's what i'm looking forward to. but before that, i'll be heading to the gym 2mr. gotta pump it up. aight'..
"it's just not like you when you walk away
it's not the steps you used to take
maybe it's me who get touchy at times
maybe it's me who know i'm searching for the right note in the lines
to reach you, now and never to love you right.
everything just gone away in a moment like it have to.
rock it up baby, cuz i'll find a way to sweep you off your feet
with my songs, with my surprises that you find sweet
enough to get you melt and get all obsessed over this and that
just the beach we need to embrace on another in the presence of the sun set"
I had a hard time to sleep recently. cuz mainly i'm scared to face my common test next week. i'm so not prepared. i reali don't know much stuff. hey, get this straight. i'm awake cuz i'm studying and bored stiff. but mostly, i really miss all those night calls that i always had with my baby. it's like riding a horse without a saddle. you sure get unstable and drop without it. i need it so badly. i'm sorry honey for having this grief situation. i know it's hard for me and you. i miss you. sometimes i would stare at my fone, thinking that you'll be giving me a holla. but then again realise, it ain't gonna happen. sniff.. and abruptly i would wake around 4 or 5 thinking of you. i can't sleep. i need your soft lullaby-voice to put me to sleep like i'm overdosed. i need your sugary sweet-whispers to let me be in a dream that behold nothing but me and you in our own moments together. i need those giggling sound to amuse me till i'm high up. those hiccups and those craps that make me laugh me lungs out in the middle of the night.
not anymore now. NO WAY! i rather die than facing all this crap. oh dear my love. i need no TLC or anyhthing. cuz i get those almost every single moment since i met you. oh yeah. you need it more baby. and i always failed to shower you with more. i guess i crossed the line today when i was pissed off when i met you. i just want to spend time with you more. i'm tired of waiting and missing you when you're busy and out. i wish i can be occupied when this happen. but you. you just can't get out of my mind. even when i'm in the shower, i think of you. tell me i'm crazy in love. tell me please. why does my heart only beats to your name? why my tears reflects only your image? why my hands yearns for yours?
i want be your fiance rather than your bf now that i am one. will you? i'll go down my knees. i show you my every mean. shine it on baby.
Bout my school. ain't nothing much. jsut normal routine. and sorry sojini for having you feel akward in the lift just now with 4 guys. your bad. hehes. and yeah derek. i'll be here to console you my sworn brother. look, maybe this help->i believe that if something bad or mishap happen in your life, soon, great and good things will come rolling you way. heys. we need to take pics soon. i miss taking with you. maybe with mark too. but we need bright environment then..
hmm.. i'll be meeting my baby 2mr. that's what i'm looking forward to. but before that, i'll be heading to the gym 2mr. gotta pump it up. aight'..
"it's just not like you when you walk away
it's not the steps you used to take
maybe it's me who get touchy at times
maybe it's me who know i'm searching for the right note in the lines
to reach you, now and never to love you right.
everything just gone away in a moment like it have to.
rock it up baby, cuz i'll find a way to sweep you off your feet
with my songs, with my surprises that you find sweet
enough to get you melt and get all obsessed over this and that
just the beach we need to embrace on another in the presence of the sun set"
FARHAN "KYLE CHEN". Peranakan descent. 19; July 10, 1989. 