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Thursday, May 31, 2007 | 9:53:00 PM

Wordplay

No. No. No. And i mean No! my common test next week. gotta take 5 of it. phew that some module have none. god. i'm scared. especiall El-Tech and Engineering Material. Any help? thanks. Need those..

okay. lets get into this. today is somehow a-boring-day-that-i-nearly-kill-myself. get the picture how dull it is?? stuck at home.. the saloon closed due to the holiday.. and haf tiff with mum. and now dad. i'm cool. i'm cool...

finally. tommorow is friday. end of the week.. oh please. make my weekend a great one. i'll study. promised. i'm a last minute person. i can't wait to it all. my hols is like just 2 week?? gosh. make me a secondary student again. Wait!! i mean during the holiday only. when re-open, i wanna be a poly student again. hehes.. i ain't gonna study in sec school again. hehes.

and lastly. i'm sick of being accused stealing other's gf, and being asked whether this guy is my gf ex. haix.
can i start a new decent r/s with my gf? why? i can't be with her? she's single when i'm wooing her. oh i see, guess the guy told you a different story? hmm.. well, that's a faked one. just like a pirated vcd. got it? got a story to tell? i trust my gf. none of your fairytales okays? give us a break can you?? just shut up and leave me and her alone. either you support or fcuk off! aight'? and I'M GONNA LAST WITH HER. AND I'M MAKING HER MY WIFE. SORRY to all you sadist. anw. some people are not like you assh**e. they're a kindred soul. thanks to my friends for supporting. esp. my best friend sis' Finah. and my friends too. i love you mates.

Cheers to my new chapter of life.-the test week.

i won't be blogging the whole next week. gotta study. sorry folks. i'll update after it. pinky promise.

did i mention i love alane?

a brief intro to... my brothers.
Here's my two romeo brothers.

This is my first brother. He won an award in this pic.

Here's my second bro. He's in Special Operation Command(S.O.C).

and this is me. finally a view of me i guess? oh. i'm the one in red.

me and my bestest buddies during racial harmony. i miss you guys.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007 | 9:45:00 PM

Outfit That Never Fit

It's been a while since i blog. Been busy with school and stuff. Here and there i am.

Going through some hard time catching up with my studies and stuff. Most of it, i am delighted i can be with alane every single moment. everytime i'm down, she'll be there to pick me up. whenever i'm sad, she'll be there to cheer me up, down , all around! thanks baby. every night, we will chat till late on the fone. heys, it may seem normal and so whatever, but I DO ENJOY IT OKAYS? its just so perfect to have her in my life. as in perfect!! totally it!

Sometimes, i just find things i didn't know. as in i didn't know i'm capable of doing things that i never did before. for eg. i didn't know i can do multiple task. i actuali still have some static. i thought it went off for good. and some people find me hot. huh? ehem, did you get the right person?? Hello. i am so not hot. Maybe know me better might help?

Oh ya. some freaking stuff happen. my fone in inactive. gosh. i can' live without it! please! i need it to contact my baby!! without it how?? no way no way!! well, blame me. who ask me not to pay the bill? hehes!! and i am so broke!! i need a job. any recommendation? and i feel like going to a shopping spree!! anyone wanna tag along? but there's a problem. it make me wonder though. --do i have money to..? i guess you do wonder now.

recently, i feel happy. i don't know why. i mean i know three-quarter is cuz i can spend time with alane. i love to go high. oh no.. only with my girlfriend and it's only her, my one nd only alane mind you. hehes. i love you alane. thanks..--baby, i know i tend to get insecure. i tend to be full and stucked up. but i wanna let you know that i know i'm not good at expressing my love to you nor do i know how to love and care you well. but i'm improving day by day, bit by bit to make you smile everyday, feel love every second, let you know you're on my mind every single moment. Even now! yes. i'm flowing with strong love current, swaying with gust of commitment that i'm willing to make..

baby, will you be my fiancee soon? i will ask for your hand as we promised.
will you be mine?

"i'm feeling every inch of you
oh yeah you hold the only key
every ounce of my life is at stake i know
come open the door and awake me within
like you said, hold you and let you love,
let you show me what you mean of those
don't you know that i tried to find the magic?
thrashing my feelings and thoughts into some lyrics
yes, my love its just my heart flow,
like a river that is clear blue
like my love for you that's true
and baby, i will, hold you now and forever and
i'll never let you go"
..::LOVE YOU::..

it may seem just a three word. feel it when i whisper this to your ears baby. you'll know..

Sunday, May 27, 2007 | 3:49:00 PM

Hit Me With The Words

I will. love, trust and be yours forever. i want as badly as you do. i pomised. i know nothing i say can take the pain and tears i cause you to. i did okay! and i'm already feeling bad bout it all. i don't wanna you to shed another drop. if you do, i wanna be the one to catch those tears, wipe it off your cheeks, hug you close, lending you my shoulder to cry on. yes we juz started out. but i feel more than what it is .. feel like its been a few years. those raging love and burning care from you, gosh, i want more!! i just can't get enough of you. i will hold you and let you show me the meaning of your love to me and how deep it is. shower me with love, pour me all the care you have and feed me with those sweet words of yours.

"...yes my love, i do wanna have it all
no matter how much it goes
just like running water out of a water hose
I will hold you close my love
let you show me what you really meant
meaning of love and hopes
gearing up to the best calibre
juggling and tossing those happiness
i feel every moment we're together
deep inside, i'm now becoming part of you
for worse, i wanna be with you forever
be mine now or never cause i know
you're the one i dream of
you're the one i'm searching for..."

Saturday, May 26, 2007 | 7:54:00 AM

Feeling down and guilty

Am i selfish? i guess iam. i'm sorry. i mean i shud haf like accept all those. trust me. i'm nearly there. i need a slightly more time to settle the midst of my heart. deep apology from me. well, i'm stil in the skool. i slept at 2+. and wake up at 4! great! till now, i'm awake and kicking..
wanna guess why i'm energetic? cuz my alane called me!! and we chat till 6. omg. those voice is like a sweet whisper to my ear and it juz gave me strength. thank you. i love you. you're the best. you're just the thing i need when i'm down, sleepy and bored. you're juz the one that can make me smile, excited and high. but i'm the one always making you sad. Alane, i promise to change fer the betta fer you. i want us to last. i do.

P.S-anyone try to break me and alane up, try!! i will do anything to save it and i will make sure your life suffer instead. get it? i love to play games with people with no brain and sadist that love to see people break up and steal people gf away. she's mine. alone. and i can assure anyone that i love her wholeheartedly.

12:51:00 AM

Finally In The Uniform Again

i'm blogging now from my ex-secondary skool. im nuw in the com lab. super duper cold. grrr... chill! that's the meaning. hehes. well, i'm basically in this skool again cuz i'm conducting my sec 3 leadership course. yup! gosh. so sian. but what can i do rite. hehes. and willl wear my uniform again! finally! phew. sweeta!! yeehaw!!

gonna be here till sunday. ya. thank god not more than that. i found out something hurtful. i din realise it at all. i mean i din even expect those words to be fake. izit juz a nothing-words-juz-to-entertain-me? i'm hurt. totally hurt. until when will you stop lying to me?? is your dictionary indicates the meaning of promise that it is meant to be broken? thanks a lot. guess it's an understanding?

i will give you a chance to explain yourself...

i'm sorry that i am always frreaking busy and always super late to ask you first.. maybe i did? maybe i din..

Tuesday, May 22, 2007 | 11:46:00 PM

Misses

Today was a slack one. lesson start at 10am till 1pm. and finally i can get a hang of EL-TECH. phew. thanks MR.RAYMOND!!

den, i head to westmall and had BK!! ass! the spiderman card was out of stock!! shitto! hehes. guess what? i'm not alone! i'm with my baby alane! hehes. den we headed to library. i'm sorry we cant find the book. i will try hard to help you find it okays? baby, i miss you. finally we get to fest after a week! hehes! we will!

"RESPECT TO RICHIE VALENS"-a great young musician.

"HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY BABY!

Monday, May 21, 2007 | 7:11:00 PM

I'm confused

Firstly, i wanna say. my fone batt was flat. den i doze off. im sorry. not that i turn it off. i was waiting. i woke up at 3. and saw my batt was empty.

yes. the boy was jealous. i mean he juz couldnt accept. a dinner with someone at night. and the girl says someone and den best fren. a boy too? and he felt insecure. he wish the girl understand. not that he restrict her. he never did. but try to be him. what if he did this. just say the truth. the more fishy, the more he became paranoid. he's sorry for being one. he tried not to. he love her. and he hope the girl will forgive him. the whole day he's waiting for the girl call. he wanna meet her. to apologise. to say he's sorry. he's just love her and don't wanna lose her. never again. will the girl forgive and call him?? millions words he put up to show that he love her deeply. a day w/out her, her voice,her text,her calls and laughter is like a day w/out a sun, a night w/out moon and stars, a flower w/out petals, a life w/out hope. she's like his strength to live, his motivation to wake and angel that brighten his day and night. please. do forgive this poor boy. he's sorry. and he wanna let the girl know-he love her. it might be a simple,common three word. but there's more to it. and he hope the girl know how deep it is. call him tonight? he will wait the whole night.

LOVE THAT HE CAN NEVER DESCRIBE.

3:46:00 PM

Young photos

I Love You

Sunday, May 20, 2007 | 7:44:00 PM

These words

"losing control of my mind
i'm counting 3 after 1 consistently
finding apple hard to spell
i look up the dictionary
i love you and i do
still sane, i giggle my way
finding things that i din expect to
feeling the breeze of setbacks i sway
i'm screaming my lungs out
trying to reach you
losing my voice never again
i don't want to lose you alane
break the silence and say those three words
love, miss, want, need
be sure i'm true in what i said"

Saturday, May 19, 2007 | 5:22:00 PM

Do you?

frens~ i miss my sec school life. my buddies, frens, teachers and cleaners! hehes.
where did it went? does good things always come to an end? i want my class
to be together again. in uniforms, school bags, our usual sitting place and the
fun atmosphere. the jokes, laughter, bullying and sarcasm, the time we all
went down to our usual table and had our lunch and stuff. god. if only i can
feel it again. do you?

Alane~yes. you're the one i miss most. the time we're together, the time we hold
hand and stuff. those love you gave me. i wish this won't end. prolly if it does,
i will fight to take it back. i want it to last. i'll do anything. i want to be with you
every moment in my life, when i wake up, and when i sleep. i want to gaze the star
with you, watch both sunset and sunrise with you. everything with you. yes. i do.
and i will bear no regret. nothing i say can describe the love thats burning up in me
and the care that i yearn for every single second. i want to live now and forever with you.
do you?

Friday, May 18, 2007 | 9:32:00 AM

Sweet whisper nothing

"look me up with those eyes, gaze at me with one more try
let the words play the song, let the voice calm you down
let me see what lies underneath it all
izit me or izit you who try to find the way
to the place we seek, to the place we dream
lock me tight in your heart, love that i tried hard to
make you smile at times, save not any tears except
tears if joy and laughter, every moment we been after
moment of embracing and kissing
every second with you is what i wish for, everyday with you is what i dream of
cupid i thank you for the arrow you strike
never once a regret, never twice a bad
from this moment, i know it was coming and it is still
the love from you, from me, and it juz bout us
slowly, it'll grow, let it shine, let it bind
i be there for you, i swore and i will take the vow
be yours and only yours, be the one and only one
from now on, this heart carve only one name
and it will only be alane..."

Thursday, May 17, 2007 | 11:28:00 PM

"Knock me down with one blow

don't take me up cuz i know

and i can't hold on anymore

cuz you're exactly what i'm asking for

you're the one, you're the one i want"

11:14:00 PM

Sweet memories in my life

Monday was a great one. though it was a last minute thingy. i'm sorry.. but i hope you enjoyed the night.. finally you get to eat what you wanted rite! hehes. the present wasn't that nice and expensive.. but i hope you like it.. i mean i know i'm not doing a good job as your bf.. but i will do my best to take away those tears, throw away those fears.. of yours! i promise.. i'm totally into you now. there's no turning back.. and i knew that i never regret having you in my life.. thank you..

Monday, May 14, 2007 | 1:38:00 PM

-HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALANE-

FIRSTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALANE. OR SHUD I SAY 18TH BIRTHDAY? HEHES. LEGAL AGE RITE. IM SO ENVIOUS OF YOU. MINE IS ABIT LATA. SECONDLY, BEST WISHES BABY. HOPE YOUR HOPE AND DREAMS COME TRUE. YOU AREN'T OLD LA. NO WHITE HAIR OR ANYTHING RITE. DO SMILE K?. GOOD THINGS WILL COME IF YOU SMILE.

LOOKING FORWARD TO NOT ONLY SPEND THIS BIRTHDAY WITH YOU, BUT THE REST OF MY LIFE. I PROMISE. STAY HEALTHY AND PRETTY OKAES!

LOVE YOU. MUACKS.

FROM, AAN.

Sunday, May 13, 2007 | 5:16:00 PM

Poems i wrote are just for you

"i try hard to give you the attention
i work hard to give you what you've mention
i think hard to answer your all your question
i live hard to show you my true devotion
i love hard to show you you're my obsession.."

Saturday, May 12, 2007 | 7:20:00 PM

Find Me In Her Heart

Friday- As per normal went to school. But then I was late. Traffic jam. Fark. Yup. Very Fark. I went out early eh. Lesson start at 9. I reach at 9.30. Was late for sure. But my reason? Hahas. I told the lecturer my car broke down. Cause he don’t accept traffic jam. And den, went for a boring EL-TECH lecture. Was suffering. I was. And will still. After that, went to woodland civic centre with Alane. Yup. Went with her to return book and borrow new ones. And saw her sis with her bf. Not bad ar. I thought she was like *guai*-study type. Din expect her to have one. After that, we had our dinner at burger king. I bought the Spiderman meal! And got a Spiderman collectible card! So happy. Hehes. After that, we head to plaza. Cause I’m meeting my ex-classmates! Hehes. Finally I get to catch with them. Well, I hope she made new frens with mine. I seem she’s enjoying the atmosphere. Well. We are, 5/1 least not the brother and sisterhood, but the full of shit talks and jokes. Hehes. After that, we stroll back. It was a great stroll. I don’t know why. Prolly because we were into one another. I guess. Strolling in the moonlight. After that, we head to the pasar malam. Well, that’s what we were aiming for! The RAMLY burger. Hehes. Awww. Know what, she’s a great sis. She even thinks of her siblings and bought for them some food. See! That’s one of the reasons why I’m into you Alane. Den, we had our burger. Hehes. She had the cutest way of eating ever. Finally, I get to gaze at her. She’s beautiful. Like an angel. Serious. Den, i send her back hum. The best part, finally we get to enjoy each other company after a while due to her exams. Her birthday is coming right up. 14th may! Well, happy 18th birthday baby. Love you.

Quote of the day: Take an eraser, erase those past and take a pencil, draw a new future

“Love letters and handwritten poems?”
“I will write for you under the moonlight”
“Make you know the meaning of the rthyms”
“Every beat that comes from my heart”
“A stroll in the park if that’s what you want”
“Mesmerizing and captivating I am”
“Speechless and stunned”
“I will embrace you through the night with this hand”

Thursday, May 10, 2007 | 11:44:00 PM

Take me down once you are done

I'm reali worn out recently.. seriously. lack of sleep. lack of focus. lack of life nuwadaes! today fencing was tough. our physical training is getting more and more intense as the training continues. today, we had an intensive running to train our leg muscle! im gonna be muscular soon! yeah! hehes. we ran around the engineering blocks from the stadium track. after that, we continue by running out of school! around it! gosh! and to leg jump at the high stairs! my legs is going number and number. its oreadi been overstretch i think. totally great cramp at my thighs and knee!

MY TARGET

PASS MY COMMON TEST
DO WELL IN FENCING
STUDY HARD
LOVE ALANE MORE.. I WILL

Tuesday, May 8, 2007 | 4:45:00 PM

Freak me out please

The bus ride was one hell of a ride. well, i tell you something. FIRST IMPRESSION IS THE OUTMOST IMPORTANT THING YOU NEED IF YOU JUST GOT TO KNOW SOMEONE! please. and i don't want to see you true attitude anyways. yucks. i swear if that guy were to continue in the bus, my fist would love to touch those filthy face of his. i don't mind breaking my specs or 2 against me. or in other words get beaten up. so long i can teach him the meaning of basic respect for girls. more jerk than i am, more ass than i was, more f**king attitude than i expected! do take my advice. try to dig those conscience out of you and reflect on how shit you've been.. i mean you dropped out at sec 3! and retain a FEW TIMES! and still got a cheek to say others fer retaining? hello! speak for yourself! a coward who gave up and be a worthless bum in the society! no balls to do it again! be a girl! huws that? oh god. do go back to school and get a decent a proper cert! okae? or i will find you next tym cleaning up my shit! get it! gd boy! and i hope you swallow the stud on your lips and let it get stuck in your throat or body! ass! sorry! no offend okays? or bullets may go thru you! ass!

I'm cool! fret not. i dont flare up easily. okaes. nuw.. i just want to say im lacking behind in my studies. i reali need to buck up. i did put effort! im going super extreme speed nuwadaes!
i need to wake up!!!

Monday, May 7, 2007 | 9:07:00 PM

i'm sorry

its to you. i'm sorry bout what happened. i shud haf hold my temper but i hope you understand. i mean i wanted to cool down but the thing kept on pestering you and insulting you. i can't hold still rite. i durn care bout what happen. i just want you to stop worrying bout what the thing had said. it doesnt affect me at all. orite. we will face together as promised okaes! i love you.

we'll drive thousand miles to find our peace together. i promised.

Sunday, May 6, 2007 | 8:56:00 PM

Never Once You Did Disappoint Me

Basically, to start.. i wanna say i'm sorry baby. Bout the movie, we will watch it together. i was a jerk. i shudn't have blame you for watching it before-hand. i don't know what gone inside me..

Confess to me. i need those. i wanna know whats on your mind. please. trust me

'confession is the thing i want'
'tell me whats exactly on your mind'
'please trust me this once'
'please know that you are always mine'

Saturday, May 5, 2007 | 6:30:00 PM

Load Me Up With More Bullets Please

Gosh.. Don't get freak out of my new layout. Its just a layout. I ain't got any gun to shoot the bullets through my head. Chill. Hope you like my layout! hehes. Life's been down recently. Many things just crop against me. Well, sumtym shooting myself be a good idea don't you tink so to escape from all of these?

Spiderman 3 is finally out! i been looking forwad to it though i din catch the premier. Looking forward ever since to catch it with her as we promised. but she watch it before hand with her fren. well, its disappointing. VERY. but wad can i do. the feeling its just different baby if you watch again. you just don't get it huw much this means to me. its okay. i'm chill.

Met many new frens and had fun in skool. not much happen though. eat eat eat eat! im getting fat fer gdness sake! must exercise more! hehes.

last sat, me and her went to west coast to study. above is the pics i took on our cheese cake. hahas. expresing my love for her. well. i don't reali have much mood to blog recently. so ya. sorry folks. add me at frenster ya. send me a comment too on the way! never leave the site without writing a comment or i'll shoot you dead! just kidding!

Qoute: Clean up your own mess and never pass it to another person

"Freaking insane i am, i took it out"

"try not to be a walking ghost"

"no pain i overwhelmed, i load it up"

"kissin the gun, and off it goes"

Thursday, May 3, 2007 | 1:14:00 PM

Trying a New Strait

Hi! Hahas! Basically today not much happen. I was late for practical. It’s because of the traffic jam! Damn it. And it’s raining for goodness sake. It’s so cold in the morning. Yeah... luckily, my practical instructor changed to a new funny, crazy and *Bo pian* type. He din even scold me when I was actually half an hour late. Great! Hahas. And believe me... he’s damn good in welding! Taught us his so called ! Hahas. And he actually heck care about stuff around and all. Hahas.

After that, I went to canteen one with Chester, sadiq, Ethan, Jun Qing, Doris and the rest. Hahas. I ate sambal chicken rice plus an additional cheese hotdog! Yummy! Hahas. Not much appetite cuz I din get to see my baby for 4 days now! God! It’s like hell for me and hard to endure. Haix... after that, I got lecture! Mathematics! I enjoy this most because of the combining of my class with MO... I won’t say the class lah! Hahas. Well, let me share the funny part. I’m the leader. Of the talking crap about this girl in the other class. Believe me! She’s huge! As in fat! Hahas! And always show farking attitude to the lecturer either by talking, making noise or disturbing others! Bitchfield! And.... I call her.... LIFE BOUYANCY! Hahas! I’m so bad! Hehes. We said that she could not work on any ships other than submarine cuz the ship will sink and submarine should be okay if it sinks! HAHAS! And titanic did not hit iceberg! It actually sinks because she was aboard! Hahahaha! I’m mad! Hahas! Oh ya! Today was so damn cold! And everyone was either freezing or sleeping! Trying to escape the boredom, I said loudly “eh... I feel like we in the North Pole... and I think I just saw a polar bear here!” Hahas! She hates my classmate: Sojini! I durno why! Hehes. She just fat pig that wear tight clothing to show off her fats and wear a-my goodness-A PAIR OF HIGH HEELS! I THINK IT IS MADE FROM STRONG ALLOY! Hahas!

And then... at 5... My baby called! Hahas! So happy! We chat while I’m on my way to the atrium for my Ambassador Games session! Hehes! Nice! She sounds so sweet! Argghhh! Miss her alot! Hehes. During ambassador, I met new friends like Sarah and err... if I’m not wrong is Benjamin! Hehes. Yup. Got another interview next Tuesday! So scared! Hehes. After that, I tried to locate the ARC cca... but can’t find them. So I decided to go home! On way home, chat with Alane. Yup. Till I reach my block! And... 2mr I’m meeting her! Finally!

2mr there is fencing, taekwondo and my breakfast date with Alane! Hahas! Can’t wait! Hehehehe. So that’s all folks! Till next time!

‘: Giggling my way through the path of sadness least not I’m not afraid to put on a fake smile to perk people’s mood:’

“I’ll write you a song if that’s your wish”
“With words that I thrown around on the list”
“Making you touched excitingly and shed tears of joy”
“Playing my guitar harmoniously to soothe you with my sweetest love”

1:11:00 PM

A Roller Coaster Ride In My Life

Well, life changes as I stepped into a new era of life. From uniforms and textbook based, I’m going into free leisure hold school with you yourself to control your life. Things were totally different from what I had expected. But I miss my secondary school life. My classmates, schoolmates and my teachers. But life has to move on right. With new love in my life, I’m blessed. I found the love that I’m searching for and my dream girl-Alane

Well, in my new school, Ngee Ann Poly, I had lots of fun and new friends. The Classmates that I knew I’m gonna spend three years with is worth to be with. Life changed. But new problems do arise. From having a morning clothing headache to new stuff to learn and all. Yup, but I’m trying my best to overcome it all. Farhan! You can do it! YES YES YES!

Well, recently, I celebrated my 1st monthsary with my baby on 23 April 2007! Muarks! Love you baby! You’re the best present ever in my life. Hehes! Let’s make this last forever! Well, I got a box full of sweets and a handmade frame from ice-cream sticks by my baby! Awww... I’m so touched. She spends her time till late night making it for me despite her busy schedule full of test and homework. Loving you more and more as the days past. Trust me... I will do anything to make this relationship last.

Hmm... My personal life? Not much. I learn new guitar tabs such as It Ends Tonight by All-American Rejects, Only One by Yellowcard and Face Down by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Spend most days sleeping, eating and with my baby! Yipees! With my baby is the part I enjoy most! Hahas... We went to West Coast Park on Saturday 28 April 2007 for a study date! Hehes. Den played the playground there!

Oh yarh! I’ve joined Adventure Rock climbing (ARC) and Fencing as my CCA! Hahas! Fun! And I took Taekwondo (TKD) as part of my sports and wellness module! I’m wearing out though but my baby sure knows how to perk up my day. Either by calling me or put up some surprise for me! Hahas
Not much in my life lately. But I’m feeling blessed everyday... should any anything go against me, I will face it; not with impulse decision but with my heart and soul combine to overcome it all. And it will make me smile always till the end. Because that’s wad I am.

“Sway with the wind to feel the breeze” “fret not my love I will”
“Walk with style to face the crowds” “Put away you fears and feel”
“Smile within yourself to feel the ease” “sweet whispers through your ears”
“Stay calm to face any difficult odds” “I will make us last for years”