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Saturday, June 2, 2007 | 3:42:00 PM

Like a crush paper

Runaway or stay away? yes. that's the solution people think of when they're in trouble and massive probs. No. i'm not doing all this stuff. i won't deny i'm not facing any heavy load. but i'm sure that nowadays people find the best solution to scram away. err? hello? does that solve any of your prob? it does? nah. it'll come again and next time, it'll drag you to a further deep hole. i been in one before. i face it rough against the coarse ground. down to the sickening scene. flat to the ground with no one hearing you. without anyone picking you up when you shouted for help. know how it feels. i takes few years till my saviour appear. and i feel bless to have her in my life now. feel the reason people. and you'll realise the solutions. "it's everyman for himself"..

I had a hard time to sleep recently. cuz mainly i'm scared to face my common test next week. i'm so not prepared. i reali don't know much stuff. hey, get this straight. i'm awake cuz i'm studying and bored stiff. but mostly, i really miss all those night calls that i always had with my baby. it's like riding a horse without a saddle. you sure get unstable and drop without it. i need it so badly. i'm sorry honey for having this grief situation. i know it's hard for me and you. i miss you. sometimes i would stare at my fone, thinking that you'll be giving me a holla. but then again realise, it ain't gonna happen. sniff.. and abruptly i would wake around 4 or 5 thinking of you. i can't sleep. i need your soft lullaby-voice to put me to sleep like i'm overdosed. i need your sugary sweet-whispers to let me be in a dream that behold nothing but me and you in our own moments together. i need those giggling sound to amuse me till i'm high up. those hiccups and those craps that make me laugh me lungs out in the middle of the night.
not anymore now. NO WAY! i rather die than facing all this crap. oh dear my love. i need no TLC or anyhthing. cuz i get those almost every single moment since i met you. oh yeah. you need it more baby. and i always failed to shower you with more. i guess i crossed the line today when i was pissed off when i met you. i just want to spend time with you more. i'm tired of waiting and missing you when you're busy and out. i wish i can be occupied when this happen. but you. you just can't get out of my mind. even when i'm in the shower, i think of you. tell me i'm crazy in love. tell me please. why does my heart only beats to your name? why my tears reflects only your image? why my hands yearns for yours?

i want be your fiance rather than your bf now that i am one. will you? i'll go down my knees. i show you my every mean. shine it on baby.

Bout my school. ain't nothing much. jsut normal routine. and sorry sojini for having you feel akward in the lift just now with 4 guys. your bad. hehes. and yeah derek. i'll be here to console you my sworn brother. look, maybe this help->i believe that if something bad or mishap happen in your life, soon, great and good things will come rolling you way. heys. we need to take pics soon. i miss taking with you. maybe with mark too. but we need bright environment then.. sorry mark, just kidding.

hmm.. i'll be meeting my baby 2mr. that's what i'm looking forward to. but before that, i'll be heading to the gym 2mr. gotta pump it up. aight'..

"it's just not like you when you walk away
it's not the steps you used to take
maybe it's me who get touchy at times
maybe it's me who know i'm searching for the right note in the lines
to reach you, now and never to love you right.
everything just gone away in a moment like it have to.
rock it up baby, cuz i'll find a way to sweep you off your feet
with my songs, with my surprises that you find sweet
enough to get you melt and get all obsessed over this and that
just the beach we need to embrace on another in the presence of the sun set"